Friday, October 21, 2005

My New Watch

I have a new watch - it is a watch and it is new and it has a square white face and brown straps.
I won it in a contest.
Not a pie-eating contest, not a sleeping contest. A real contest.

I wore my new watch one day and everyone liked it.
But my old watch didnt like my new watch.
So it got angry.
And stopped working.

Now I have to wear my new watch all the time.
Cause my options have gone - my old watch got jealous and stopped working.

This story has multiple morals :
1. Old watches are jealous of new watches.
2. Old watches should not express their jealousy by stopping work - its detrimental to their own well-being.
3. I gained a watch, I lost a watch => net amount of watches == constant => law of thermodynamics is proved (don't know which one though)
4. If you are still reading this, you are in a worse state than I am => accept my sympathies.
5. If you are STILL reading this.........

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Sunday, October 09, 2005

The Perfect Proposal

He had been wanting to do this for a very long time now. He liked her, in fact, he loved her... and tonight he was going to tell her....

It was all planned out .... he had picked out the perfect dress for her, was sending it over with a note saying "I would love to see you wearing this at dinner tonight", take her out for dinner in the most posh restaurant in the city, let the waiters serve champagne with an engagement ring in her glass.... it would be the perfect night, the perfect proposal. The restaurant booking had been done, the dress had been bought, the waiters had been forewarned, he had learned a romantic poem to recite to her :

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

He read the lines... he heard his voice say them out loud as he practiced in front of a mirror... and he realized how much this meant to him. He thought back on all their times spent together... their first meeting, when he had been too busy staring at her best friend to notice her.... then after 30 minutes noticing how she shyly brushed her hair off her face, and then her eyes crinkling with amusement at his amateurish attempts at impressing her friend. He had gotten angry at her then for making him look stupid, but now he knew he was only angry with himself for being soo stupid.

They had started out as friends, the hi-and-bye variety. Then one fine day, he called her to wish her on her birthday, and she called him a few days later to ask for some notes, and then phone conversations became a regular affair. He called her every night at 11 p.m. and they often spoke till 2-3 a.m. about everything and nothing - about life, and movies and songs and family, and philiosphy, and the past and the future and the garbage bin down the street and the state of the education system and the perfect tea and..... After a few months, they started studying together, and going out for coffee and conversations, and then movies.... He loved the way she was when she was with him - very demure, very sweet - she didn't even talk to other guys, but she trusted him - as if he was the best guy in the whole world and she knew already how he felt about her.

6 months passed by, they passed out from college, joined jobs in different cities, and then started the daily chat routines and Google Talk once a week.... and phone conversations sometimes...

And now they were meeting after a year of work - a year when they hadn't seen each other. And as he practised his lines in front of the mirror, he realized how happy he was, how excited, how thrilled. He loved her, and he was going to see her again after a whole year. And he was going to propose and they were going to get married, and live happily ever after. He would see her everyday morning at breakfast, and everyday night at dinner - life would be perfect.

They met at the restaurant and she looked even more prettier in the dress than he had imagined....and he again marvelled at how perfect life was going to be. Surely the fact that she wore the dress only confirmed that she liked him too. They ordered, and he asked the waiter to dedicate "Everything I do" by Bryan Adams to her, and she blushed and smiled sweetly and his heart soared with pleasure. She then announced that she had news : She had been transferred to the city where he was staying and they could now keep meeting, and it was like icing on the cake.

The food arrived - shrimp, pasta, salad, and the champagne... and when she looked down into the glass and saw the ring, she shrieked with delight !!! Yes she loved him too !!! And she was soooo happy !!! She got soo excited - she held his hands, stood up, and started jumping for joy !! The waiters all came around to congratulate them and she was soo happy she started dancing, still holding his hands, and people started watching them, and the waiters started smiling and clapping their hands ....

And he was shocked !!! Where was the sweet shy girl who he had fallen in love with? Who was this bold female who would dance so vulgarly in front of a clapping crowd !! How much had she changed in just 1 year !!!

And how was he ever going to break up with her ???

Inspite of all his plans, it wasn't the perfect night after all.

Sunday, September 25, 2005


Country Roads
Take me home
To the place I belong......

Driving down the road
I get a feeling that
I should have been home yesterday.



Friday, August 26, 2005

Your future

After I worked on postgresql code for exactly 2.3 hours, and I had cribbed bout the lack of documentation for exactly 23.23 hours, the Lords of the DB finally got fed up with me, and gifted me Oracle. So now I will predict your tomorrow - not every tomorrow, just describe 1 day of your life - for any further life-changing predictons, contact me personally with a fee of enough material for 3.5 research papers.

Anyways, on this tomorrow:
You don't wake up with the alarm clock - and miss an important meeting with your guide. When you do wake up, it's 12 p.m., and you fall off the bed when you realize it.

The water stops halfway through your bath, you curse the Gods, and the Oracle, and when you come into your room, you get entangled in the sheets that you had left lying on the floor and fall again.

You get dressed, run downstairs, go to the lab - download linux kernel 2.49.54 and compile it. Then you decide to do your Matlab assignment and try getting statistical toolbox license for Matlab, only to realize that someone else is already using it.... you get fed up, and decide to write an open-source version that is as good as Matlab (unlike R).

You start coding and in 6 hours you have coded up open-Matlab i.e. opMLab :).... You then realize that you have not followed proper coding practices... and the design is not good, and there is no modularity, and the architecture is ill-defined..... so you decide to rewrite code.

But you don't know / remember anything about design/architect patterns, so you decide to get an architect for you to do the job.

Since you are such a coding God, you need a architect God, so you decide to go to JJ School of Arts to find an architect..... end up hiring Howard Rowark who says your code shud have a soul....

You get irritated with him, tell him, no it shud have modularity and de-coupling.... he says Coupling is dumb... try Desperate Housewives instead. :P

You get fed up cause he just doesn't listen to you, so you end up shooting him, and then pushing his car off a cliff to make it look like an accident....

But while you are pushing, your shirt sleeve gets caught in the car door, and you fall down into the ocean... you fall and fall and fall at 9.81 m/s^2 acceleration and theta = 90 degrees, and you start calculating time required to touch the waves of the ocean... and at the same time your life is flashing by in front of your eyes and you realize that Life is sooo beautiful, and there is soo much beauty in the world, especially the rocks and the waves and the ocean and the sunset and the crocodiles floating by in the ocean.....

You fall with a splash, and you swim, and you swim, and a shark tries to eat your right hand, but a dolphin gives you a lift and protects you from the shark....

You land at a beach, where there is a beer tree and a vodka tree and small plants of peanuts growing.... you get drunk and challenge the crocodile to a fight till death....

You fight and you fall and become unconcious and the crocodile thinks you are dead.... and that he has won, and takes your body to the city to show his prowess to his city-friends.

In the city, just when he is paying to get your body stuffed to put you on display, you wake up, start screaming and run away... and come back to the safe havens of IIT, where there are no more crocodiles, only tigers....

Anyways, so you are back in IIT, and as usual :
You check your mail, and get a mail from your guide saying that he had also missed todays meeting cause of some other work... and then you go and meet him finally, and try to explain to him why you didnt work the whole week.

He doesnt like your reason for not working, gets angry that you are making excuses, and shoots you instead.

Being experienced and all, he has no trouble getting rid of your body, and gets himself a new student after 2 days...

End of day.

P.S. Every story seems to result in a death !! Damn !!

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Fun-cident Of the Day

I got a post from the US yesterday.
GRE people.
Some PowerPrep software.
A thick cardboard CD-cover.
All nice and sealed.
Posted with lots of stamps.
Says "here is your CD".
nice CD cover.
no CD inside.

Friday, August 12, 2005


Princesella has a Prince Charming and Baby-doll doesn't ?? Ofcourse she does! Comments in the last 24 hours have poured in from all parts of the world saying that they love Baby-doll, and they want more posts about her, so here goes....

This is a story about one of Baby-doll's "deewanas". His name was SriSankalp Saahityavaadi JayaaRam (Rams for short). Rams was a knight in armor, though not shining armor, who was quite turned on by the idea of bossy women ..... and women in control.... and women in power.... .... and women in general when the type-1 type were unavailable.

Rams liked Baby-doll and kept trying to "pataofy" her - he took her out for dinner to Pakhtoon, and the Grill and Cafe Mondegar.... he sent her cool blogs to read, and lent her interesting books and movies and songs, and went on long walks, and he flirted and he flirted... but to no avail....
He then tried chocolates and flowers.... even went to Prince Charming for advice .... alas !!

He tried writing her poetry, he tried singing her songs, he even tried dancing in the moonlight, when all failed he went to the hamming club and learnt to di-da-di his feelings in Morse....

He tried and he tried.... and all he heard was "NO NO NO".

Then along came Saruan, who forcefully kissed Baby-doll under the moonlight among the coconut trees next to a beautiful lake, and she swooned cause of his amazing kissing style, and fainted and died, cause her heart was now with Saruan.

Moral of the story : Don't fall in love. It will kill you.

P.S. : What happened to Saruan? He tried kissing Baby-doll's best friend instead.

Another Moral : Don't swoon when a guy kisses you.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Princessella and Baby-doll

Long long time ago there lived a princess called Princessella. Princessella being a princess was very pretty and nice and had cute dimples and beautiful eyes and everyone loved her a lot. All the princes and all the knights and all the soldiers and all the farmers loved Princessella - cause she was so pretty and had beautiful eyes.

She was also very sweet and nice which people didn't notice cause she was so pretty and had beautiful eyes... but it was OK because they loved her any-which-ways, and thats what counts.

Anyways, Princessella had a sister too - who was sometimes older and sometimes younger to her. This is possible cause this is a story, and stories are never logical and hence Princessella's sister was sometimes the elder sister and sometimes the younger sister. And her name was Baby-doll.

Now Baby-doll was inncoent but not too innocent, and pretty but not sooo pretty, but she was just as nice as Princessella, and was also very intelligent and smart and all that. Baby-doll was also bossy (though not too bossy) which is why she was sometimes elder(elder people are always bossy, you know). Anyways, the point is that noone likes bossy people irrespective of whether they are pretty or not, so noone liked Baby-doll too much at first sight - they all loved Princessella who was so pretty and had beautiful eyes, and who was not too bossy either.

One day Baby-doll wanted to go shopping. She called out to Princessella saying "Chalo Princessella, lets go shopping". Now Princessella had been told by her beautiful Prince Charming that she should not go out shopping cause it was not safe, and Princessella being all-in-love agreed not to. But she didn't care enough to ask Prince Charming why he had told her not to go - and was it safe for Baby-doll to go? She didn't ask, cause she was too busy brushing her hair and admiring her pretty eyes in the pretty mirror that Baby-doll had gifted her.

Anyways, Baby-doll being a good little sister kept asking Princessella to come along, she gave her lots of "bhav". She sat up at night till 2 a.m. after studying till 12 a.m. trying to convince Princessella to come shopping with her. Then she got up at 4 a.m. again to convince Princessella to go shopping with her. But Princessella was enjoying the attention and said "No, my Prince Charming has asked me not to go and hence I will not go - but you go ahead". Baby-doll kept saying that "If you don't come, I will also not go", but Princessella said that she didn't know why Prince Charmimg had said no, and hence she would not come.

So Baby-doll called Prince Charming at 4 a.m. to ask him why not. When he didn't get up, she called Anya, the Lord of the Rings, and then Yamraj, the Lord of death... who finally woke up Prince Charming who gave permission to Princessella, and they all finally went shopping.

Being lovely lovers, Princessella and Prince Charming soon left Baby-doll all by herself, and went for some cool hep party, and while coming back alone from her fun-filled shopping Baby-doll fell sick, and decided not to go shopping ever again.

6 months later, Princessella wanted to go shopping this time, and she mailed everyone saying "Lets go shop!!", and when Baby-doll said "No", she decided not to give Baby-doll any "bhav" at all and instead get angry at Baby-doll for saying no.

Guess what. It worked. Babydoll felt bad and cried and Princessella also cried and no-one went shopping that day.


P.S. : Thats how real-life stories end - with a sucky end.
Another P.S. : I know this is not a real-life story. Nowadays fake stories have sucky ends too :(.

Saturday, August 06, 2005


It started with a simple invitation into a friends room tonight...
She had some trouble, wanted some help.....
She wasn't from CSE, from some other dept, where life isn't as hectic, where people have other means of fun besides the comp.

There was a party going on... a sublime affair with only the closest of friends.... a different hostel life. a different set of experiences...

2 girls in the same institute, same hostel, same program, neighbouring rooms living completely different lives...

Made me realize the significance of the choice we make at every moment in our lives, picking one out of an infinte number of paths...

Made me realize that we have but 1 life : no time for regrets, no time to change whats gone... do what feels best NOW, make every moment matter....

I got all sentimental about doing what I love, about trying out new things, doing what I really want in life...

And then went back to my life : blogging, chatting, sleeping late, getting up late, and hurriedly reading papers, waiting for mail from my guide....

Oh well.


Its not like I cannot live without you - I can.
Its not like I cannot be happy without you by my side - I'm pretty happy with life right now.
But everytime I feel you on my lips, everytime I taste you, it feels soo good - you feel soo good...

You make me realize whats missing in my life...
You make me realize whats missing in my happiness - its you.
You add to the perfection of life itself.

And everytime I feel you for the "last" time, I always want some more of you... a litttle more... just another byte....

Wanna spend the rest of my life with you - try out new things with you...

Pastries, brownies, icecream....

Man, I'm a chocolate addict :P


Thursday, August 04, 2005

Women at the Workplace

Women in Microsoft mentions how committed Microsoft is "to attracting talented women to the company and the high-tech industry at large."

Their beneits include Adoption assistance plan, Contraception benefit, School's Out program for older children...

Their message to women:
"Come work in our company, because we are nice people and we don't complain when you have to do all the _womenly_ stuff like adopt kids(men don't do this), contraception(men don't need it), take care of your older children(men don't seem to have any)."

Most other companies have similar policies ofcourse...

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Rain Rain Go Away ??

I'm never one to say that, since I love the rains, but its been flooding, and we're wet and tired and hungry....

It started raining at 2 p.m. yesterday, & we were all attending lectures(1st day of classes). By 7.30 p.m, it was clear that if we left lab to go for dinner in hostel, coming back would be difficult.... so we tried calling all restaurants for the next hour to check if they would deliver, but the phone lines were all jammed, and when we finally got through to SP, they said the restaurant is closed cause water has entered the kitchens(!!)

I walked back to the hostel without my umbrella to enjoy the feel of the rain and the gorgeous weather, but when we reached H-11, we saw that the gate was flooded with thigh-level water... rushing with massive speed... almost like a quick-flowing river.

Our watchmen, and the canteen guys had formed a human chain to get us inside the hostel and prevent us from being washed away. I have never been in water that was flowing so quick - almost lost my chappals in the current... and was saved from being washed away only by the watchmen.

When we went in, it was only to realize that the comp rooms were flooded, so was the mess (no food !!) and elecricity had to be switched off to prevent short-circuits in the flooded areas ...

Our council team members though actually fought the current and brought back khichdi from the mess for all of us which we ate by candle light in our drying room... kept worrying where our juniors were, that they got food and all...(our responsibility, after all)

Fell asleep in the dark hoping everyone else was alright... woke up in the morning and went for a lecture in a classroom with water on the floor and no electricity and guess what, the prof conducted a pre-requisite quiz(!!)

All in all, an unforgettable day.

P.S. : 3 cheers to everyone who worked so hard yesterday - Meghana, Shalini, Ruchika, the mess aunties, the watchmen, Vinod, the canteen wala guys, and every1 else I missed.

Friday, July 22, 2005


We are officially MTech-2 now, cause our juniors are here :)... We had a orientation session for them - took them to hill-top for the intro session .... Attending the orientation, seeing all of them at Convo hall yesterday, and at LT today morning brought back memories of my own first day...
Has it been a year already? Somehow it doesn't seem like it.

Room Shifting

Finally shifted from a shared room to a single room yesterday.... took me the whole day to sort out my stuff, clean the room, arrange the furniture, and the comp.
My new room has a table that can just hold my monitor.... CPU on the floor :( ... and it keeps shaking, cause it is soo unstable.

I closed the cupboard door a little hard on the first day, and one of the (movable) shelves fell down.... it just happened to be the shelf that had my accessories and deos and make-up and other stuff - all the teenie-tiny stuff that I have ever owned, and it all got scattered through the cupboard... small safety pins in between the clothes, facewash & shampoo behind the books, earrings in corners my fingers couldn't reach... some jewellery is still missing :(

Anyways, the room is quite big, the scenery out of the window is beautiful, and I love it inspite of all the cribbing that I just did. I've put up all my posters, and a rose on the window shelf, and curtains .... and it now feels like home.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Harry Potter - 6

Here I am struggling with my MTech - 1st stage report, when someone turns up in the lab with his very own copy of Harry Potter - 6.

1. Spending 895 for a book - not worth it.
2. I dont have the time - I _HAVE_ to do my report - its not an option.

But I am sooo jealous :((.......can't even concentrate on my damn report right now.

UPDATE : Read the book ... :)) Now back to report writing.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Attitude Difference

London has a bombing - many many people die - the whole of Europe has a 2 minute silence in their loving memory.
India has a bombing - many many people die - India has a 1 day bandh in their loving memory - all businesses shut, shops closed, essential services disabled, violence to enforce the bandh, and many many more people die.

Monday, July 11, 2005

How Nerdy Am I?

I am nerdier than 84% of all people. Are you nerdier? Click here to find out!

Ok, So I seem to be very nerdy... :((
On the bright side....the site says "High-Level Nerd. You are definitely MIT material, apply now!!!."
Sounds good to me !! :))

Anyways, have my report submission in exactly 6 days, so back to work :)

Sunday, July 10, 2005

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Courtesy of PhD Comics...of course

The Matrix

Its been analyzed by 10000000 bloggers by now, I know. But we were just discussing about the technology used in the Matrix and when will it become viable, given our current AI capabilites, when Gautham made an interesting statement.

According to him, given the current craze in gaming and 3-D Virtual reality and all that, when the technology does become viable, most people will want to be hooked up to the system voluntarily. When you can experience what you feel like, when you feel like, why live in this boring world at all? Ofcourse, everyone would know how to "break the limitations put by the rules" of a system like that.

Robots would be responsible for maintaining the system, feeding our bodies nutrition and all that - just like in the movie, but people would _choose_ to be connected, and let the robots live in the "real" world.

He finally concluded by saying that "the first generation may not accept it, thinking about their freedom and their rights and all... but by the second and third generation, all of mankind will be hooked to the system. So if I find the idea preposterous, thats only because I'm too "old" to accept new radical ideas like this, and just like all technology, it will be more easily accepted by the newer generation, and in 20 years after its introduced, it will become the norm. Just like it happenend with cell-phones."

Blew my mind.
Any comments??

Saturday, July 09, 2005


My roomie Neela celebrated her birthday today. We decorated the place up, cut a cake at midnight, some other stuff that is not going to be mentioned here ..... and had midnight food and all.
All I'm gonna say is
"Neels, I refuse to increase ur Orkut scrap count.... :) so - HBDU NBDU :P "

Friday, July 08, 2005

Quotes ....

"Sooner or later we all discover that the important moments in life are not the advertised ones, not the birthdays, the graduations, the weddings, not the great goals achieved. The real milestones are less prepossessing.
They come to the door of memory unannounced, stray dogs that amble in, sniff
around a bit and simply never leave. Our lives are measured by these"
- SUSAN B ANTHONY (1820-1906) American reformer

"I have decided to stick with LOVE. hate is too great a burden to bear" - MARTIN LUTHER KING

"My bounty is as boundless as the sea, My love as deep; the more I give to thee.
The more I have, for both are infinite." - Romeo and Juliet - William Shakespeare

Kisses blown are kisses wasted,
kisses are not kisses unless they are tasted,
kisses spread germs and germs are hated,
so kiss me baby, I'm vaccinated.

T-Shirt Quotes:
Sorry if I looked interested. I'm not.

Don't upset me! I'm running out of places to hide the bodies.

Upon the Advice of My Attorney, My Shirt Bears No Message at This Time

Two rights do not make a wrong. They make an airplane.

The original point and click interface was a Smith & Wesson.

You! - Off my planet.

Well, this day was a total waste of makeup.

Errors have been made. Others will be blamed.

I can't remember if I'm the good twin or the evil one.

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days......
You would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

How Not To Die

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Cool Blogs

  1. How To Blog

  2. Bout baby Leta

  3. Beautiful Photography

  4. Cooking for Engineers :)

  5. He started using "blog" first

  6. JAM Magazine's Editor

State of Fear

I usually like Michael Crichton books, cause they are interesting, fast paced and with some science stuff in them - be it chaos theory or cryptography or virology.
But his latest book - State of Fear - is somewhat different : It is science stuff with a story stuck somewhere in between so that it classifies as fiction.

So the bad guys are never named, never caught, they do some random "bad things" which the heroes stop, and maybe save the world - actually he doesn't clarify whether the world is saved or not - whether the final disaster is averted or not. There is not a single "character" - only single dimensional people who do whatever they were meant to without rhyme or reason.
Effectively - very bad novel.

But.........brilliant science stuff.
The book is actually about the "global warming" effect - does it exist? Is it as dangerous as everyone says? How good/bad are the environmentalists? How easy is it to "preserve" nature (and what do we mean by preserving nature anyways??). Should we believe all media reports?

Basically, it questions whether global warming is really as big as it is hyped out to be, and in the process makes you question many more things too.

He ends the book with some facts, references etc. etc. and a quote :
"Everyone had an agenda. Except me."

Inspite of the story, I would say : go read it.

MIT Weblog Survey

The MIT Media Laboratory is conducting a general social survey of weblog authors - results to be used in a Ph.D. dissertation ... Bloggers, please go contribute to someone's degree - a nobler cause there couldn't be :D

Take the MIT Weblog Survey

Monday, July 04, 2005


Parivartan Shikshan Sanstha was set up in 1997 to provide non-formal education to children in Sangam Nagar, Wadala (East). This slum is home to around 200,000 people, mostly migrant workers, and the nearest Municipal school is at 45 minute walk. For 2005-06 Parivartan wishes to provide for the education of 100 children.

I visited Parivartan on Saturday along with other members of Aid - Mumbai.

The school is barely a room big right now, the education is informal - the teacher ensures that there is no rote-learning and is interesting enough that students get off the streets and come to school instead. They need resources : money for another teacher, a picnic for students if possible, more formalisation in education (textbooks, teaching aids etc.) so that students find it easier to cope when they r sent to a BMC school, and daily snacks for the kids....
If you can help, there is more info here

I felt very sorry for the kids, though didn't know my stand on the slums themselves - should they be demolished or not (thats a big issue cause the government demolished some 58 houses very recently in that area).

1 part of me feels that working to improve slum conditions is a waste - these people come and live in that slum fully knowing the conditions and if they can live with it, then why should a sane person spend his/her life in trying to improve their lot ? A lot of the homes were soo dirty, and small and had garbage all around, but also had a TV/radio blaring inside. Om Damani who was with us commented that maybe their condition is soo bad that they need to lose themselves in the fantasy world of television, but I felt that if they feel that TV is more important than cleanliness and toilets, then maybe they deserve a world soo bad... Then there is also the fact that when given flats, most of these slum-dwellers sell them, and come back again to live in slums ....

But when I thought about it : if I was born into a life less privileged, and had seen no better, then where would I get thoughts for self-improvement from? As people who have been blessed with good homes, it should be our responsibility to help out those less fortunate - teach them if they dont understand .... fight for them.... they need help soo badly....

Also met some people from TISS on this visit - they were students doing their Masters in Social Work. These were students who have decided to spend their lives in social work - as a profession.... working for only 5-10 thousand Rs a month - trying to help these slum-dwellers.

Thats a life-long commitment. I was inspired.

News From Arnd the World

1. Google Sued for Click Fraud, 38% of Revenue Fraudulent?
The original Story on Yahoo

2. This is inspiring : Ian Turner of Romsey Associates based In the UK went missing on Saturday 25th or Sunday 26th of June 2005 after attending the WebmasterWorld Conference in New Orleans. He happens to be a well-known moderator and search engine optimizer. In 2 days, there was a huge thread on ThreadWatch asking for information from people, providing up-to-date info to others, and even collecting money to hire a Private Investigator.
Anyways he was found in Atlanta - without his passport and is probably back home by now. No clarifications from him yet as to what happened, but it just illustrates the enormous power of the web when used for the good.

More details here and here

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

My new bag

If you have read my last post, I made a new bag out of my old denim jeans :). And though it isn't very neat and all, I love it and am very proud that I made it, simply cause I made it out of my own hands - its my creation - my "kriti".

But that made me wonder - when I make a bag or a painting -I don't compare it with professional stuff - I don't judge it - I just love it cause its mine. Then why does this not apply for other things? Why am I not happy with doing my best in every walk in life?

Seems to me that somewhere in our head, we have our very own satisfaction levels. So for me, being even slightly creative, once every 4 years is good enough. My cooking standards are higher - I am happy if my Mom likes what I make - which is unfortunately quite rare. But with studies, or (weirdly enough) clothes, I am never quite fully satisfied - I always want something better.

Why such varied standards? Why not a uniform satisfaction criteria? I wonder...
Maybe its my subconcious keeping achievable standards. For example, even if I try, I cannot become a better painter - I just don't have the vision and probably thats why I'm happy with whatever little that I do in painting.
And maybe the higher standards at studying is my sub-concious telling me that u can b better than what u r... so keep trying.
Maybe. (i wish) :)

Busy Busy

Have been v busy again - though this time its been busy having fun.

I met Lalit, Joyce and Ashish Khatri on Saturday. We went to Nirmal lifestyle - after just hanging out for sometime, we ate at 'The Grill' - nice but a little too expensive, and then we shopped !!! It was fun.

Then I went home, had dinner (even though I had already eaten - cause my mom had made my fav foods)... and the next day was shopping with Jisha and Mom, and a very nice lunch at 'Grand central'.
Also saw a movie - new movie starring Will Smith that questions if the 3 laws of robotics can evolve... let me know the name if u have figured it out :)
I also made a bag - yes u read right :P - I made a bag - out of my old pair of jeans and I did embroidery and all on it - not very neat, but I love it.

Tonight we treated our hostel seniors - as a farewell, cause they r passing out - and that was cool. They r a very outgoing bunch - and 18 girls together at dinner == an amazing time indeed. They also ragged some of us tonight something that they hadnt done when we had joined IIT :).... and that was hilarious ....

And on the way to Naturals for ice-cream, I ran into an old friend Rupi. It felt really nice meeting him after so long... and I hope it happens again.

Ofcourse work is also still in progress... so busy busy.. :)

Monday, June 20, 2005

Timeline - My Weekend

The past 2 days have been sooo damn hectic. My guide asked me on Friday evening to modify some of my earlier course project code to work with some BerkeleyDB input, and said it should take me a few hours to modify, and a few hours to run the code (expected running time=4hours).

9 p.m. Friday : Slept in the lab on a chair waiting for details about the modification from my guide.

11.30 p.m. Friday : I've got mail !!!

11.35 p.m. Friday : Start looking at code sent, documentation, my old code...

2 a.m. Saturday : Modifications begin - I realize we have some data format issues, add a new hash table, then realize this has introduced more unexpected issues - undo previous work :(.

8 a.m. Saturday : Go to hostel - breakfast & bath - no sleep in bed yesterday night.

9 a.m. Saturday : Continue work - 4 files modified and successfully tested :) - but 2 big ones to go.

11 a.m. Saturday : Status meeting with guide. Issues resolved - deadline postponed.

4 p.m. Saturday : I added 1 more hash table , removed dependancy of code on lucene - skipped tiffin & went late for dinner.

3 a.m. Sunday : It runs !!! But tested only on small input. Start running on required big data set.

3.30 a.m. Sunday : Fall asleep in lab on chair, while program is being executed.

6 a.m. Sunday : Get up to realize program crashed (God knows why) - back to hostel for breakfast, & bath - have not seen my hostel bed for quite some time now.

8 a.m. Sunday : Start running the code again to confirm it crashes :).... try debugging but am tooo tired to think. My project partner is back from his Raigad trek, starts suggesting possible failure reasons.

11 a.m. Sunday : Meeting with guide, followed by crazy debugging. Program crashes after 30 CPU minutes, so we sleep in 30 minute spells while waiting for it to crash during debugging.

7 p.m. Sunday : Realize fault is of outdated BerkeleyDB version - download new version, start running it.

9 p.m. Sunday : Hostel for bath, change of clothes - come back to see program still running - bug gone :))).... 4 more hours of running time left, so go out for dinner.

12 a.m. Monday : Program still running, go to sleep. Its not getting enough CPU time due to heavy duty programs being run by my guide and Sujatha.

5 a.m. Monday : Expect to see it completed, but unfortunately find out-of-memory exception instead :((. Considering that our system is a 2 CPU, 4GB RAM machine, that comes as a huge shock (HOW???? :O)

5.30 a.m. Monday : back in lab, fixing code to ensure earlier 5 hours of processing does not go to waste. Restart program from mid-point and hope that consistency is maintained.

8 a.m. Monday : breakfast, blogs, start writing this post.... current status : it should finish processing in another 5 minutes - then we confirm that output consistency is maintained....

10 a.m. Monday : It runs & it is consistent atleast in all our tests so far :)). Have mailed guide. Now trying to find performance stats.... hopefully, this will be the end, and afternoon will be a movie and sleep :)).

Man, what a weekend.

P.S. : Just in case you are shocked by my dedication & hard-work, let me tell u, I am dedicated and hard-working and all that in bursts of 3-4 days every 6 months or so...
By afternoon, I should be back to procrastination :)).

Another P.S. : Sabah came to IIT yesterday but I was too busy to show her anything except our lab, or spend much time talking to her. :( Felt v guilty - sorry Sabah - will show you around IIT next time. :)

Friday, June 17, 2005

The past 3-4 days...

I have done nothing significant. Tried to study CRFs (unsuccessfully unfortunately)... treated 4 of my friends to dinner, had burnt tea and burnt dal served in the mess :((...
Will meet my guide now, and run some experiments to confirm that our class project actually gives the results we claimed it would give....
Pray for me.
P.S. : Hope people are satisfied with the regularity & promptness of my posts. ;)

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Geetu's Wedding

For those of you who missed me, I'm back. :) Had gone for my cousin Geetu's wedding in Panipat. Official congrats to Geetu & our new Hemant jiju.
Had loads of fun - the wedding was in Panipat's most posh hotel - "Hotel Gold". Unfortunately, the water in Panipat upsets my stomach :(, so didn't eat anything- had loads of icecream though :). Also met all my cousins, and aunts, and uncles after v long. Have to get back to work - not much time to describe everything - will put up a few snaps though...

All of us cousins - Geetu is in orange

More cousins

Geetu & my nani (grandmom) at the sagan

At the sagan - Hannu & I

Mere haathon ki mehendi

Need I comment?

Kirtan before the wedding - The aunty is "Lord Krishna" searching for her "Radha" - the bride..

My youngest cousin - Peehu - isn't she a darling??

Friday, June 03, 2005

Satish's Blog

One of my good friends, Satish blogs regularly, and I ofcourse read his posts regularly. Unfortunately, every few days, my bookmarks get deleted (don't ask me how or why - I just don't know)... and for some strange reason I can never remember his blog addr. So then I ask him again or ask a common friend or something like that - and its a major pain. This has happened many many times, but now his blog is finally on Google - result no 1 (though it did suggest that I change my query to "SEV bloodlines" :P ). So now I don't have to worry about my bookmarks getting deleted - I can just Google him out. And if you haven't realized it by now, Satish this post is to ensure that I have you address on my blog permanently, just in case you lose ur Google rankings again. :P

I realize that I could also link to you from my links here, but this is much better since I also get a post out of this, and I prove your point about being dumber than anyone thought I was. :P

P.S. : Have updated your blog link again :|

Harry Potter

If you have read all 5 books, then I suggest you try the fake version of the 5th book here.
Its amazing how easily someone can copy her style. The book is not v well written, certainly not as engrossing as the originals, but interesting nevertheless, especially the treatment of the characters. And its quite small, so you can actually read it in less than 2 hours...

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

1 year at IIT

I have been reading articles by Kamal Sinha on how useless the IITs are, and it got me thinking - what have I learnt from IIT in the past 1 year...??

The one thing that amazed me in IIT : how open Profs. are to student suggestions. I have seen Profs changing their style of teaching, & even the curriculum thanks to student feedback.. Even more importantly, a student can openly and honestly criticise a Prof on his face without fear of repercussions. Even more surprising, students think this is normal, dont appreciate this freedom of speech, and think that its their right to criticize Profs :O....
They clearly havent been to Mumbai University, where your in-term marks depended on whether you belong to the same village that the Prof does, and whether you have praised him enough through the sem or not.... 1 word against the Prof and the topper could mysteriously flunk all his courses and repeat the year....

Anyways... back to the subject : in my 2 semesters here, I took 8 relevant (CS) courses, 1 irrelevant course (Communication skills) & 1 lab course.

1. The lab course taught me that learning how to code is easy - a very important lesson to someone from Mumbai University, who has not coded much in her B.E. Learning Java is easy, Perl is simple, and not knowing a language will never scare me again.

2. The Communication skill taught me the importance of laughter in my life. I attended it every week in my first semester when I was grappling with my other very tough courses and was very stressed out. Once a week, I went to the audi, sat with 200 other PG students, and laughed at the foolishness of the Prof :), his weird Powerpoint slides with too many colors and sounds and animations, and his weird fundas about what communication was.

3. My core CS courses - Artificial Intelligence, Algorithms, Databases, Data Mining, Lanugage Processors, ... (I tried to take a variety of courses from all fields - and not specialise in 1) - didn't really teach me much. The little that I learnt - I am sure I will soon forget. Its already difficult to remember how we had derived the guarentee that backpropagation algorithm will always converge for linear seperable data in neural networks....

My major lesson was how ignorant we B.E. students really are, how much there is to know and how little of it have we learnt, and how much of it we have forgotten :( - or atleast I have.

So what did I really learn in 1 year & was it worth it ?
1. I met some of the most brilliant students - B.Tech.s as well as M.Tech.s, realized that some of these guys are going to be rich and famous in the next 20 years and also that I am dumber than I thought I was.

2. I hope that I learnt not to take life so seriously. The grades don't (shouldn't) matter, what job I will get after M.Tech is not important, and most important - the world will not collapse if I don't understand a particular concept taught in class or don't complete an assignment on time.

3. The rat race in IIT taught me that the race is only with yourself - what others are doing, what they are achieving, what they think about you is all unimportant. The important thing is to be happy, to enjoy what you do, to put in your best effort without worrying about the results. It sounds like those self-help books yap-yap, and no, I didnt learn these lessons completely, but I really did learn this in the past 1 year.

4. I learnt how important friends are - B.E. friends who are still in touch, and new friends made in IIT.

5. I realized that inspite of all my plans and hopes and dreams, I still don't know what I want to do with my life.

Extra-curriculars :
IIT has many well-maintained basketball courts, badminton courts, tennis courts, a swimming pool, a huge ground, etc etc. Visits to any of the above in my 1 year stay in the IIT campus = 0.
Visits to hill-top during the semester = 0.
Visits to Hiranandani = maybe 4-5 times.
Visits home (only 45 min away) = 4-5 times.
Movies watched from the unlimited movie database on the IIT servers = 4-5

Making up for all of it now though.....

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Very Cute Blog

Tania Desai

Do read her posts on Spring Cleaning, and "Man-hunt : The search for an eligible guy...." :P Very cute & very funny...

Structured Procrastination

John Perry just made me realize that the main reason I am not studying is because there are more unimportant things in my life that I have yet to do. When something more important than reading research papers comes along, then I will start reading papers to avoid that more important thing.
Enlightening, isn't it?

Anyways, the logical part of me, is reminding me that I really do need to work - else I will regret it later!! So I need to find something more important to do than read papers.... any suggestions???

P.S. : If the person reading this post is my guide, Sir I am studying real hard and not wasting a single mintue of my time. Please believe me ....

Sunday, May 29, 2005

My last 1 week

Couldn't find my blog on the dashboard, so couldn't write anything. Its obviously back now :).

Last week has been loads of fun. Apart from walks to Devi temple, and hill-top, we also went out for desserts to Mocha - tried Avalanche (absolutely yummy), and Piano Man (reasonably good, though not great).

Later in the week, we went to Sachin's at Nirmal lifestyle. Again loads of fun, though I felt it was a little too over-priced considering the food quality and the atmosphere and the service. Meghanak, if u r reading, the head of the family chair is empty for you :)).

And finally on Friday we went to Water Kingdom. That was massive amazing fun!! All day in the water, on the slides, fooling around - we tried every slide, and the scariest ones twice !!

Yesterday, I was in my room the whole day - read 2 novels, watched a movie. National Treasure should have been a hindi movie since it requires you to suspend your thoughts and believe that the hero can do anything, and the girlfriend is a whiny chinck even though she is a bigshot(Director?) in some huge place where the Declaration of Independence is kept.

Also read Jeffery Archer - "Not a Penny More, Not a Penny Less" again, and Ruth Rendell - "A Sight for Sore Eyes". This book was a little like Danielle Steel, but much more sadder. By the time I finished the book, and the hero died, and the heroine lost her voice, I was so depressed, and felt like life is sooo hopeless, and not worth living - which is not a feeling I get ever. So I will recommend DO NOT read this book. I guess the problem is that I tend to associate with the main character, whether good or bad, and feel very bad if bad things keep happening to them without rhyme or reason.
Anyways, then went online, read some much nicer stuff (my favorites and all) and then felt better.

Now reading a paper for my MTP.....

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Jos Claerbout

Johannes "Jos" Dianovich (born Jeremy David) Claerbout, age 25, died on August 20, 1999. On that fateful day, he left the gym, bicycled to work, had breakfast, greeted his coworkers in his usual exuberant way, and sat down to read his email. Some minutes later he suffered a cardiac arrest, gasped, and died. Paramedics arriving within 4 minutes could raise no vital signs.

But in the 25 years that he lived, he achieved a lot - wrote beautiful college essays, knitted colorful toessels, went to college, took a year off from college, studied in Alaska, wrote some really brilliant stuff. More importantly he had great people skills, he could make friends with anyone and had a great sense of humor & a very different outlook in life. His family still maintains his website - go check it out.
Jos Claerbout Homepage

I was really inspired.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005


We climb hill-top everyday now, which as the name suggests is the top of a hill inside IIT. :)
Its a small climb, a good evening walk, and the view from the top is amazing.
From the top - at the 4 corners, you can see the whole of IIT, the tall-rises of Hirnandani, Powai lake, Vihar lake, Thane creek (and even the Mankhurd-Vashi bridge !!), and a very big slum.
The sunset looks very beautiful, and the breeze is amazing.
Good fun.

Movie Reviews

Saw infinitely many movies over the past 3-4 days. Haven't worked at all, my life has been "eat, read, watch movies, sleep, dance, .... and other fun stuff".

1. Million Dollar Baby is a nice movie - liked her boxing skills a lot !!! - though I wouldn't have given it the "Best Film" Oscar.
2. The Ring - 2 is strictly OK. Not worth watching in a theatre definitely.
3. Lucky - the worst movie made in the history of man-kind.
4. Matrix Reloaded - too many fight sequences - the movie should have been half an hour long - they added fights to make it into a 2.5 hour long movie !!
5. Matrix Revolutions - should have been a 5 minute movie .... the rest is like a "The Latest Technology in Computer Graphics Tutorial"
6. Joey episodes - season 1 (24 of them) - nice. It starts off being not-so-good, but the later episodes(10+) are really good.
7. Coach Carter - thought it was a typical "Losers win the game after new fundoo coach turns up" type of a movie - but it does have a nice twist. I personally liked it.
8. Be Cool - dumb movie. Watch it only if you have nothing better to do in your life (and trust me, there will always be something better to do !!)

Still have some 5-6 movies already downloaded that I haven't yet watched. :))

Thursday, May 12, 2005

My Room & My Life

Every 15 days or so, I clean my room from top to bottom - iron clothes, clean out the cupborad, wash dirty cups and plates, sweep the floor (if the maid has'nt done it).... looks shiny clean for say around 10 days, then slowly it starts getting messy again.... till it becomes too messy and I can't sleep on my bed cause it is filled with clothes, cups, books, papers, and everything else that I own.
Then the cycle repeats. :)

My most recent before and after snaps of my room-cleaning bouts ....
(The clothes r there cause I have to iron them... so its not as bad as it looks - but it gives a good contrast for a before-after pic ..... :))

Anyways, my life is sort-of similar too - every 15 days or so, I decide to be focussed on some goals from studying more to taking care of my skin to exercising and all....
Stay enthusiastic for some time, work on it, and then slowly stop....

Anyways, right now, the enthu is still strong and my room is still clean..... :))

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

My Music

Switched on some music yesterday while ironing clothes, started dancing, and then just couldn't stop. The best thing was that if you remember a song that you haven't heard for a very long time, you can just download it instantly - love the IIT network man!

Played all my favorite music from Aerosmith to Madonna and Elvis to BonJovi and quite a few classics along the way. Most of the rooms on my floor are empty due to the holidays, so I could switch on the music at full-volume after v long. :)

Its amazing how much joy listening to music can bring. :)

Surely You're Joking Mr. Feynman !

Read this book yesterday - its an autobiography of Richard P. Feynman, who was a Nobel-prize winning theoretical physicist.

But the book is not about science or physics - its about the things that Feynman did in his life. It includes playing the drums, cracking safes, painting, his work in biology (!!), solving maths & differential equations approximately in 1 minute, and the many many practical jokes that he has played on many many people in his life.

The one thing that really amazed me is that he doesn't fit into the "typical scientist" picture - he is curious about everything from management to culture and art. It makes you realize the flaw in the "graduate students should only do _proper work_ and not be involved in any extra-curriculars" philosophy that many people here seem to endorse. :))

Amazing book - loads of fun. The cover says :
"There are 2 types of genius. Ordinary genius do great things, but they leave you room to believe that you could do the same if only you worked hard enough. Then there are magicians, and you can have no idea how they do it. Feynman was a magician."
So true.

One of his famous lectures :
Cargo Cult Science

Monday, May 09, 2005

The Alchemist (again)

"I am a part of your dream, a part of your destiny. If you have to wait until the war is over, then wait. But if you want to go before then, go on in pursuit of your dreams. The dunes are changed by the wind, but the desert remains. That's the way it will be with our love for each other. If I am really a part of your dream, you'll come back someday."

"When he reached the top of the dune, his heart lept. There, illuminated by the light of the moon and the brightness of the desert, stood the solemn and majestic Pyramids of Egypt.
The boy fell to his knees and wept. He thanked God for making him believe in his destiny, and for leading him to meet a king, a merchant, an Englishman, and an alchemist. And above all for his having met a woman of the desert who had told him that love would never keep a man from his destiny.
If he wanted to, he could now return to the oasis, go back to Fatima, and live his life as a simple shepherd. The boy told himself, that on the way towards realizing his own destiny, he had learned all that he needed to know, and had experienced everything he might have dreamed of.
But here he was, at the point of finding his treasure, and he reminded himself, that no project is completed until its objective has been achieved."

All I can hope for is that when the time comes, and when my destiny calls out to me, let me have the courage to go follow my dreams, risking my flock, and my love... to find whatever I seek.
And while the book never says this, when I do find it, I hope it turns out to be worth all the effort that went into it :))

The Alchemist

Read the book finally, and loved it.
The simplicity of the story only underlines the importance of the message behind it - to have the courage to follow your dreams and realize you destiny, the enthusiasm to work towards your goals, and the belief in the "Soul of the World" to accept whatever life offers you, knowing that there is a lesson in every experience - whether good or bad.

Some of my favorite passages :
"People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams because they feel that they don't deserve them, or that they will be unable to achieve them. Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity."

The boy told his heart "When I have been truly searching for my treasure, every day has been luminous, because I have known that every hour was a part of the dream that I would find it. I've discovered things along the way that I never would have seen had I not had the courage to try things that seemed impossible for a shepherd to achieve."

"To die tomorrow is no worse than dying on any other day. And to die in the midst of trying to realize your destiny is a lot better than dying like millions of other people, who never even knew what their destinies were."

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Birthday Cakes

Happy Birthday to Me

Celebrated it on the 18th of April - am 22 now (will still pretend to be 21 in the About Me section though...... :) ).
A friend sent me a card saying "Hope your birthday is magic" and it was.
It started off with cake at midnight in my lab (NSL), along with my classmates, which was followed by a coffee treat to all of them at the H-8(hostel-8) all-night coffee shop.

Loads of my friends remembered and called. Loads of messages, SMSes, postings on the newsgroup, mails, cards, surprise gifts :).... it made me feel soo special that so many people remembered.

We also had a project demo & submission in the afty which went quite well.
In the evening my Mom and Sis came with more cake :).....

Inspite of having endsems the next day, the CSE girls later took the time off and treated me to dinner. It was soo sweet.

Thanks guys for all your wishes !!!
You all made my birthday very special indeed.

I'm Back

Its been soooo long since I last blogged. Exams are over.
My first year in IIT.
Half of my M.Tech. course.
And I survivied !!

Someday I might find the words to describe what the experience was, but I can't seem to do it now.
Grades are out : I have decent grades, some good, some not-so-good.
Took a 5 day break - had loads of fun !!
Now have to start working on my MTech project, whose 1st stage submission is in the beginning of July.

Monday, April 18, 2005

Orkut : Who Am I?

Changed my Orkut profile yesterday.... and while I was typing, I suddenly wrote this. It might not be too good or anything... but I wrote it myself. I am soooo proud of myself :D

Who Am I?
Thought a lot of what to write,
But 100 words are hard to find,
How do I say who I am....
I'm beyond understanding - even my own....

I'm crazy, I'm sane... I confuse myself...
I'm fun, I'm bored... I'm in your face.
I believe, I question... forever curious...
Trying to find my place in this world.

Who am I? A simple question....
If I ever figure, I'll change these lines....

Saturday, April 16, 2005


Just gave my first endsem - MEMS - which is Micro Electro Mechanical Structures.
It was an institute elective - which means that I had to take a non-CSE course, and I took this one cause it was the easiest, and my 4 CSE anyways too heavy and too tough.

So I didnt attend any lectures through the semester, and ofcourse had absolutely no idea what MEMS is.
The instructor Prof Apte makes the audio of his lectures avaliable online, so that students who have missed a lecture can cover up by listening to them.

So over the past 2 days, 8 of us girls in my hostel room, listened to 18 1.5-hour lectures one after the other. Bulk & surface micromachining, MEMS based sensors, fabrication... blah blah.

ALl of us didnt sleep, the lectures went on day and night, and now its over.
My room is a mess - notes lying around, dirty glasses, coffee cups, uneaten food, dropped food.....
Looks like a war-zone - like people came over for 2 days, rocked on, and left.... destroying everything in sight..... the waste has been an invitation to ants, and cockroaches (we saw a cockroach in the room yesterday !!)

the fun's over though, the people have gone, and my roomie and I are now cleaning up.....

20 years down the line, when I look back at life at IIT, and all my courses...... this will be the 1 memory that will dominate....

8 girls, crowding in a small hostel room - on the beds, chairs, on the floor.... listening intently to a voice on the speakers....
falling asleep ... being woken up ... giggling at the sidey jokes, complaining bout the _stupid_ course, ..... sharing a room, almost sharing a life.... for those 2 days atleast....

1 endsem down...
4 more to go.....
For now, its back to cleaning though......

Sunday, April 10, 2005


Winding up my course projects right now....
They all work, though not too well... all need fine tuning - some amount of time that I can't afford to give anymore.
In my Hypertext Mining project, the index needs further compression, more tesing, better heuristics added in.....
The Data Mining project needs faster execution - an O(n) algo,.... maybe an approximate one :(...

Working on all of that.. I now even dream of all the algorithms at night..... :(

But it has been an amazing experience working on both the projects - v challenging - they taught me _never_ to believe the theory being taught till u implement it :))......

Have to go start testing.....

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Friday, April 01, 2005


Saw the movie today, after my compilers quiz.
Nice movie - unrealistic, but funny, and sweet.
Will Smith is soooooo cute in the movie.....

After watching him being all charming for 2 hours, all my tensions about marks and grades has gone now.... all happy and relaxed... :))

Listening to my favorite songs right now... skippin dinner... break over...
Going back to work in 10 minutes :))

Thursday, March 31, 2005


This is the status messages of one of the guys in my class.
I loved it, so I copied it here.....

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
you fritter and waste the hours in an off hand way
kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
waiting for someone or something to show you the way
Tired of lying in the sunshine, staying home to watch the rain
you are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
and then one day you find ten years have got behind you
no one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun


Got my approximation paper today.
Even if your attempt on a paper was 0, unless you see the big fat red ZERO on your answer sheet, you have no idea how bad it hurts....
Damn !

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


Happy Holi !!
I know this post is late, but submissions and assignments and quizzes..... :(( as usual..

My holi this year was a lot of fun.
My mom and sis came to visit me on Friday - we went out to this v nice restaurant for lunch, then shopping, and icecream, and we even visited a games arcade where we played air hockey !! WHen they left in the evening, I was v upset - missing them a lot - want to go home.

Saturday morning, all the girls in the hostel came together to play in the lawns. Lots of colours, lots of water, a water pipe, and within a few minutes, we were all completely drenched and completely colorful, having the time of our lives.
Then the music started, and the dancing began !!
We went completely wild - had loads of fun.
We were also served thandai, and Kurkure :)), and lunch had puran poli :))) - very nice.
Later in the evening, all my lucky friends who had gone home returned with more puran poli....

The guys in the IIT boys hostels have a tradition of tearing off each others' shirts - and then playing in the mud (yuck) and doing the ghaati dance....
At around 11.30, a huge bunch of guys turned up outside our hostel, and were dancing - colorful, dirty, wet and shirtless, to the beats of a live dholak... I wonder who was playing the dholak - he was REALLY good. It was fun to watch and laugh :)) - one of the weirder sights that I have seen in my life.

Anyways, I am into studying right now in almost every waking hour, and yet very very behind in my studies :((
Have exactly a month till my exams get over.... 29th April.
If I survive this sem, I will write again....... so bye bye for a month, and please do pray for me (and all my grades) :).

Wednesday, March 23, 2005


I am a Teaching Assistant in IIT, which basically means that I have to some 8 hours of work in a week, and I get paid 5000 Rs for that - not bad at all for 8 hours/week. :))
I also have to sign in a muster everyday - compulsory.
Unfortunately, thanks to me falling sick and traditional day, I couldn't sign for 2 days in the muster.
Today I realized that the 2 lack of signatures cost me 500 Rs. - :((
I should be sad, but the only thing that I'm thinking is
"My 1 signature is worth Rs 250 - coooolll !! :))"

Wanna get my autograph ?? ;))

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Traditional Day

Celebrated traditional day and played Antakshari (proper with mikes + band + hostess Kuhooji + cool buzzers + video screen + .... ) in our department on Friday.
All the girls turned up in sarees (I am wearing a saree too - though not a v traditional style :)...) Had loads of fun - getting dressed, getting compliments :) + the antakshari was fun too....
V nice event - v well done, nice break from regular nabad of studies ....

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Blah Blah

I have been v frustrated with life and my acads in particular the past few days. I have been really behind in work and stuff, and my reaction to that has been to pretend I am an ostrich :), and If I ignore all my work, maybe it will ignore me and go away :). I wish.

Anyways, so saw a _LOT_ of movies - all bad - from Cole the Barabrian to Shabd and Minority Report (again) to some weird basketball movie which has a kid playing in the NDA or something .....
All bad movies - saw all of them with lots of attention - made me wonder why do I enjoy all this crap - where has my good taste gone? Have now promised my self that I will not watch bad movies - I will not watch the same movies again and again - I will instead spend(invest?) time in searchng for and downloading a good movie when I wanna watch stuff.... :))

Also read a new sci-fi by Isaac Asimov - strictly OK - nothing at all like his foundation series or even Bicentennial Man ....
or maybe I was just not in the mood to think about the hows, whys and whats.....

Happy Birthday Papa

Tuesday, March 15, 2005


Yes Mr/Ms A,
I was sick enough to stop blogging - I had high fever, and cold and cough - look horrible now :) and feel really weak :(.

Data Mining quiz is over, Compilers quiz tomorrow.. life in IIT goes on as usual. I missed 5 days of IIT including Saturday & Sunday, and I'm very very behind in my work... so right now I'm tense, stressed out, and hate the IIT life - can't wait to get out.

Traditional Day here on Friday - I don't have a sari (what a reason to hate the world :) - and I don't see anything GOOD happening in my life right now :(.........

All this frustration seems like a good reason to stop blogging - till I feel better, and I love the world again, what say?

Wednesday, March 09, 2005


Have v bad cold and cough...feeling v tired...
missed 3 lectues today :(
don't have any energy at all.
Have a midsem on Friday - Data Mining
Wish me luck ...

Women's Day

Met up with my RAIT friends Hardik, Lalit, Sukrit, Ashish yesterday. Had loads of fun, went bowling - scored badly inspite of _all_ the advice :).
It was "International Women's Day", so they got me flowers and stuff. It was cho chweet :))
The flowers didn't look all formal like a bouquet, neither were they boring roses. Getting them made my day - was smiling all day long :)).

Monday, March 07, 2005

Mid Sem Results

Approx Algos - lowest in class...
Compilers - in the bottom 5 :((
MEMS - not enough to get an AA :((

have to concentrate on grades again...
studying seriously now....

To all my friends,
do not let me waste my time anymore....

Saturday, March 05, 2005

RAIT & Horizons - 2K5

This post is for all my RAIT friends who were not in Mumbai and couldn't attended Horizons this year.

Now that I've finished being all pleased with myself, let me tell you all about it.
We reached there - and I was all senti - the train journey & the Mankurd-Vashi bridge - it is so gorgeous, the RAIT gate, the D.Y.Patil sign, Cupids....

The crowd outside was wild as usual - too many ppl, security was having a tough time as usual. Rupi had also come to attend, and I saw him trying to control the crowd too :)).

Went inside into the organizers area right next to the stage :) ( thanks to Rupi )

Euphoria was amazing as usual.... but the stage did not have the Horizons logo :(( - it was filled with sponsor's posters only.

Met a lot of old friends - mostly ppl working here - it was great.
The show started late at around 8.15 (so what's new?) and ended later at 11.40 p.m. :)

Had to travel back alone in the train, and really missed not having my own batchmates who would have dropped me home :).
Waited at Vashi station for a train for half an hour at midnight ....

Wanted to stay back overnight, but it just wouldn't have been the same without all my friends. The memories......... best left unsaid - you guys know what I'm talking about .....

To the organizers - I must say - great job - well done !!
To my batch ppl, miss u guys !!


Attended RAIT - Horizons 2K5 yesterday night. Euphoria performed there for the 2nd time in 3 years, and they ROCKED!!

Palash Sen has MAJOR energy !!! He jumped, sang, danced, praised the crowd, flirted, joked, all at once for 3 hours straight. And the crowd went crazy !!!

And they played not just their own songs, but the crowd favorites too, including :
1. Old Hindi stuff - Om shanti Om, Damadam Mast Kalandar, Sanyaan dil mein aana re,...
2. New hindi stuff - Bheege hoth tere, Dil Se, Dil Chahta Hai, Sanyoni, ....
3. English stuff too - Nickelback: This is how u remind me, Robbie Williams: Let me entertain you, Bryan Adams: Summer of 69, Queen: We will Rock you, ....
4. Cute stuff : Old Mcdonald Had a farm :)) ....

I also completely love the way Palash dances - his dance basically comprises of him shaking his hips :)) - either facing the crowd, or ....
Good fun :))

Euphoria Rocks !!!
RAIT Rocks !!!

Sunday, February 27, 2005


An old friend googled me and found my web-site, and this blog. This is for him.

An English professor wrote the words, "A woman without her man is nothing" on the blackboard and directed the students to punctuate it correctly.

The men wrote: "A woman, without her man, is nothing."

The women wrote: "A woman: without her, man is nothing."

V v old, but .......appropriate.

I am Sam v/s Black

In the celebration of end of mid-sems, I saw many many movies, but the only 2 actually worth watching were "I am Sam" and "Black". Both dealt with similar themes : 'I am Sam' is about the life of a mentally retarded person, and whether he is capable of taking care of his daughter, while 'Black' is about the life of a deaf-dumb girl, and her teacher.

Similar themes, both quite nice. But somehow Sanjay Leela Bhansali seemed like he was trying too hard. The cinematography, the angles, the way Rani walked, the bent head of Amitabh, the snow falling. Every scene seemed calculated to make the tears fall, which they did. Almost every one in the theatre was crying - guys included :).

'I am Sam' on the other hand, didn't try so hard, and hence seemed more believable. It was just a simple story, and if it touched my heart and the tears fell, that was just incidental. I didn't even agree with the basic theme of the movie - I don't really think that a mentally retarted person can be entrusted with a kid, even if the kid is his daughter and he loves her v much and all that jazz. But I could see the love on the screen - I could relate to it.

While 'Black' was good, 'I am Sam' was brilliant. Hindi cinema is moving ahead, but we still have a long way to go.

Questions but no Answers

If I could change places with anyone in ths world, would I? No.
I know this, I accept this. Nobody has a better life than I do, no one has more abilities than I, just because it is me. Each one of us is unique in our abilities and our thoguhts, and our lives........ our lives are all different and yet all the same. We want the same thing - happiness, though we each try our own different ways of getting this happiness.
Then y do I try so hard to convince myself that if others were offered the chance, they "should want" to trade places with me. Y do I feel the need to feel like my life is better to others. It is not. I know it.
But I still try. Effectively that is what it all boils down to. Topping the class, looking good, being friendly, being popular - all ways of saying - See I am better than the others. I forget that it is not the others who I am trying to convince but myself.
And what happens the day that I do realise that I don't have to prove my point any more? What happens to my ambition? Why top? Why workout? Would I still want to change the world if I knew that I wouldn't get the credit for it? Maybe ... Maybe not.

Unfortunately I don't know. Do I want to change the world in the first place? Or is it just my ego wanting to be acknowleged ? I know what being famous is like, and I know for sure that it is not for me. But I do want to know that I could be famous if I wanted to. That the lack of fame is a lack of desire, and not a lack of ability.

If I could do anything right now, would I be doing absolutely the same thing that I am doing right now? NO. Unfortunate but true. I can't really do what I want to, cause it is not practical - not possible. So is this a compromise? Not really. I am enjoying my life the way it is. I have amazing friends, I enjoy my work, I am learning a lot. Shouldn't that be enough ? Do I have the right to have an almost perfect life, and then crib cause it is not actually perfect? Doesnt seem right to me. But then again, the unreasonable man changes the world, doesn't he?

Friday, February 25, 2005

Midsems !

Was missing for quite some time now, thanks to midsems going on.
Well, they r finally over :))
1. Approx Algos went much better than expected - probably cause my expectations were so low :)
2. Compilers went very very bad, and absolute grading is like a knife hanging on my head :(
3. Hypertext mining, and MEMS were both generally bad.

Went home yesterday, had loads of fun, saw TV, ate a LOT, now have lots of food in my room.

Tried my hand at baking a cake, after v long. I used to be decently good at it, but this one turned out to be strictly ok.

Meghanak just managed to reinstall my network card on Linux - I had managed to un-install it, and after almost a month, it is back. Now I can go back to Linux (was using Windows in my room till now, and it was a MAJOR pain).
Thank you Meghana :))

Will watch a movie now.

Expect LOTS of posts in the next few days...... :))

Friday, February 18, 2005


Went for dinner to h-1(hostel-1) canteen a few nights ago, with 3 Maharashtrian friends, X, Y & Z...
After dinner as we were walking back to our lab, the discussion turned to poetry, and X (who is a very close friend) started reciting a beautiful Marathi Poem, to which they all started discussing how rich Marathi literature was. That statement was then refined to how marathi culture was the richest, at which point I interrupted to say that while it may be "rich", it certainly does not mean that the other cultures both in India and abroad are not equally rich. Y said, "Yes, thats true. Other cultures also have great literature and stuff." "But marathi literature is the best - we have so much of it, and even marathi cinema - India was introduced to cinema thank to Dada Phondke (??) "

Now Y is one of the most brilliant people I know, and I really respect him. Which is why I felt so hurt about his attitude. If we brilliant students at IIT start believing in the "my culture/religion/hometown/language is better than yours", what hope do the others have? And such an attitude is exactly why we have wars in the first place.



This is one of the cutest sites I have been to in quite some time.

Hoops And Yoyo

Hoops and Yoyo are Hallmark characters - their Valentine's day card was the cutest thing that I have seen :)) They dance, they make wise-cracks - what more can anyone ask for ?? :))

My personal fav is their e-card - love the song - have been singing it for 4 days now :)), and so has everyone else who've heard it.
Kisses For You E-Card

Other stuff :
Things that I learnt about myself from
1. I act 28 years old !!! (Am I really that serious bout life ???) :((
2. The colour of my passion is Yellow :))
3. My Dominant Intelligence is Logical-Mathematical Intelligence (no surprises there)
4. I am a romantic
5. I have a Type A personality
"You are hyper, energetic, and always on the mood
You tend to succeed at everything you attempt
And if you don't succeed at first, you quickly climb your way to the top!
You could be called a workaholic, but you also make time for fun
As long as it's high energy and competitive, you're interested
You have the perfect personality for business and atheltic success "
6. I am a Life Blogger! - My blog is the story of my life - a living diary. If it happens, I blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible. (i hope so atleast :))

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Bru Cappuccino (Mocha)

Good for hostelites, 6Rs, strong, bitter, and most important - it doesn't have sugar pre-added, so you can control how much of coffee and how much of sweet do you really want... :))

Valentine's Day ... Now

___ji got her digicam today, had major fun taking pics and videos in the hostel of every1 making funny faces .... :))

Then all of us CSE M.Tech.-1 girls went to HN (Hiranandani) - had major fun - eating, taking snaps and eating some more :)))

I had chicken franky + pani puri (gol guppe) + plain crossiant + Rich Dutch Truffle pastry (which was to die for !) and then had "bites" of everyone's icecream. :))
Man, I'm turning into a hog :).

Now, everyone's watching Black....

Some of my friends called me up to wish me Happy Valentine's - it was cho chweet :))

All in all, an amazing fun day. :) - my first "all-girls" Valentine.

Valentine's Day ... Then

In a very nostalgic mood right now....

Remembering all my friends from B.E. ....

First year - Valentine's we had our Mechanics-1 exam and then on 16th, we were supposed to have E. Drawing. 14 of us went to Ahuja's Biryani House in Vashi, and had a blast ...

Second year - Baked chocolate brownies for my friends... they loved it !! Got all dressed up to go out, and then got a call from them - "extra class - we are busy, will c u late in the evening"...

Third Year - Went to TIFR :)) and then Gateway of India - bought myself a skirt... still have it.

Final year - Rangoli (first floor) lunch, with v special ppl again.

Guys (you know who u are) - really missing all of you right now. All my friends, through the years, want to call up each one of you, talk, meet up....

The days gone by, RAIT.......
Was watching our B.E. RAIT CD - all the noise, all the hungama, all the good & bad singing :)
Saree Day, Horizons, B.E. project, and chai at KRESIT, "Bollywood Hollywood", Robotics (Ram Bharose), India-Pak match, ALL the birthday treats, hanging out at ____ & ___'s place doing nothing, food at Cupid's and Kaygees ........ and sooooo much more

What do I say?
Thanks to all of you for always being there...

Especially for all the suport in the Mahabaleshwar trip, the way it ended - I wouldn't have survived it, if it hadnt been for all of you.

You have ben gr8 friends through the years, and this is a thank you for all of it.
Every small thing - stuff that I can't possibly mention :)).......

Thanks to all of you for being such great friends !
and Happy Valentine's day !!

Monday, February 14, 2005


Got up this morning, very hungry, wanted to have an omlette but late for class....
so had a slice of bread and some tea, and ran.

Half way through, I met the rest of the class - lecture was cancelled :)
Walked back to my hostel - for the omlette.... only to realize that mess was closed since it was 9.30

Me hungry now....
What a way to start the day !

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Charles - Camilla

All the papers are talking about the wedding - though they seem to be saying that this is not as romantic as the Charles-Diana fairytale wedding..... Somehow, I have to disagree.

Charles and Camilla have been "going around" for so many years, doing things together, living together... and yet, even at the age of 52, after so many years, they want to make it official.
The romance is still alive.

Hope I find someone like that - someone who I am so completely in love with, and who is in love with me, even after so much time......

The perfect Valentine's Day Story.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Finding Neverland

Saw the movie yesterday - thought it was awesome :)
Great camera-work, taut story-line, amazing acting, and a sense of abstractness - a feeling of meaning without a message, that ensured that it was neither an "artsy" movie, nor a "commercial formula-flick".
Went with good company too ....and had major fun.
Later went to Mocha for some panini and coffee (which wasn't so good).
All in all, a fun day.


Changed my glasses from a cool square plastic yellow-black, to a more traditional silver metallic frame. It is a nice change of look as all my friends will agree, but...... I feel like I have lost an integral part of my personality. I have been wearing cool glasses ranging from a biker blue frame to my black frame - the first thing that anyone would notice about my looks "were" my glasses.
Now ofcourse I fit in with the IIT crowd - all my friends seem to have similar frames - not so happy about it - I don't like "blending in" with the crowd.
Anyways, I'm getting loads of compliments about the new pair - so that's a good thing :))....

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Quality Control

This speaks a lot about the quality of Japanese products and their quality standards. They're still laughing about this at IBM. Apparently the computer giant decided to have some parts manufactured in Japan as a trial project. In the specifications, they set out that they will accept three defective parts per 10,000 . When the delivery came in there was an accompanying letter. " We, Japanese people , had a hard time understanding North American business practices . But the three defective parts per 10,000 have been separately manufactured and have been included in the consignment. Hope this pleases you . "


Loads of things happening in my life.....

First, got my mom a digi-cam (Olympus 3.2 Megapixels, 3X optical zoom...) from my first TA (teaching assistantship) .... she was quite happy about it.

Met all my friends from RAIT over the week-end - after like 2 months - major fun !!!

Saw page-3 -it was OK - not that gr8 and not bad either.........

Had a surprise quiz on compilers on Tuesday - it went v badly - so am going to get a zero..... :(( ....
Then had an announced quiz on Approximate algorithms on Thursday, which went equally bad, and another zero....

A little freaked now - not used to flunking quizes, leave alone getting zeroes
So trying to study seriously..............

We are doing a project based on an indexing and search engine Lucene.... for our Hypertext course. Right now, I'm just trying to figure out how to run some sample code based on the Lucene classes...
Getting back to work.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

IITB - MOOD I - Rock Show

Went for the IITB Mood I Rock Show on 25th....
Wore this Megadeth T-shirt, and funky accessories, only to realize the other girls in my department were not turning up, and the guys came in their fav checked shirts, or spiderman t-shirt.
Anyways, within 5 minutes they had gotten over their shock (and I had gotten over mine :))
and we had quite a lot of fun.

There were 5 bands in all -- the first 3 were BORING.
next was ZERO - they were awesome - the lead singer had AMAZING energy - I went completely crazy, "sitting" with my friends and "head-banging" like there was no tomorrow :)) Parikrama - the band was sort-of better, they had more "well-defined" personalities on stage, and they played amazing songs - "But it rained", and "Yellow" by Coldplay, but honestly not much of the head-banging type of numbers. Had attended Parikrama 4 years ago in RAIT - and trust me, they have improved drastically in the past 4 years.
Got up and stood with the crowds for the last 3-4 of their songs, it was awesome - the energy was contagious.

Now, I have sprained my neck (all that head-banging), and couldnt move at all yesterday. Slightly better now, so am sitting in front of the comp, completing my compilers assignment, and writing this of course.
My friends of course think I'm crazy cause I'm in so much pain, and yet have plans to go next year.... but ....... :)

Got my compilers 1st assgt marks today - below the class average - sort-of depressed now...
Back to assignments.....

Tuesday, January 25, 2005


Attended a lecture today on "Self-Referential Systems" where a guy from some New York University, wearing a "I love NY" cap, explained why a system cannot try to explain its own properties, without getting into trouble. He used set theory for most of his lecture, saying that even high school students would be able to get most of what he was explaining - I couldn't :((....

Anyways, at the end of his lecture, he gave this example :
"This is an unprovable statement"
Now if this statement is provable, then it is also a false statement, and hence it cannot be proven in the first place, leading us to a contradiction.

This implies that the statement must be TRUE and UNPROVABLE, thus proving the EXISTENCE of statements that are true, but cannot be proven to be true.

It got me thinking "Is this one way of looking at and believing in God - someone who is true (exists) but cannot be proven to be true?"
It was one of the only times in my life when I considered the possibility that God may exist - Blew me apart by the logic ......

I must say - Logic Rocks !!

Sunday, January 23, 2005


This is my first post.
Starting a blog is supposed to be a happy event I know, and I'm supposed to be all excited about it, but today is one of the rare days in my life when I'm all depressed (without a reason that too).

I've always believed that the best thing about me is the fact that I'm so easy to please - always happy, always enthu about life - don't need a reason to feel happy - I just am.

Today I'm looking at the other side of the coin - sad, lonely, depressed without reason.

It's a beautiful Sunday evening - I have been invited to a walk by friends, dinner by another guy and yet I'm feeling oh-so-lonely.

Going to go find a reason to be happy.....

A long relaxing bath should do the trick...