If I could change places with anyone in ths world, would I? No.
I know this, I accept this. Nobody has a better life than I do, no one has more abilities than I, just because it is me. Each one of us is unique in our abilities and our thoguhts, and our lives........ our lives are all different and yet all the same. We want the same thing - happiness, though we each try our own different ways of getting this happiness.
Then y do I try so hard to convince myself that if others were offered the chance, they "should want" to trade places with me. Y do I feel the need to feel like my life is better to others. It is not. I know it.
But I still try. Effectively that is what it all boils down to. Topping the class, looking good, being friendly, being popular - all ways of saying - See I am better than the others. I forget that it is not the others who I am trying to convince but myself.
And what happens the day that I do realise that I don't have to prove my point any more? What happens to my ambition? Why top? Why workout? Would I still want to change the world if I knew that I wouldn't get the credit for it? Maybe ... Maybe not.
Unfortunately I don't know. Do I want to change the world in the first place? Or is it just my ego wanting to be acknowleged ? I know what being famous is like, and I know for sure that it is not for me. But I do want to know that I could be famous if I wanted to. That the lack of fame is a lack of desire, and not a lack of ability.
If I could do anything right now, would I be doing absolutely the same thing that I am doing right now? NO. Unfortunate but true. I can't really do what I want to, cause it is not practical - not possible. So is this a compromise? Not really. I am enjoying my life the way it is. I have amazing friends, I enjoy my work, I am learning a lot. Shouldn't that be enough ? Do I have the right to have an almost perfect life, and then crib cause it is not actually perfect? Doesnt seem right to me. But then again, the unreasonable man changes the world, doesn't he?