If you have read my last post, I made a new bag out of my old denim jeans :). And though it isn't very neat and all, I love it and am very proud that I made it, simply cause I made it out of my own hands - its my creation - my "kriti".
But that made me wonder - when I make a bag or a painting -I don't compare it with professional stuff - I don't judge it - I just love it cause its mine. Then why does this not apply for other things? Why am I not happy with doing my best in every walk in life?
Seems to me that somewhere in our head, we have our very own satisfaction levels. So for me, being even slightly creative, once every 4 years is good enough. My cooking standards are higher - I am happy if my Mom likes what I make - which is unfortunately quite rare. But with studies, or (weirdly enough) clothes, I am never quite fully satisfied - I always want something better.
Why such varied standards? Why not a uniform satisfaction criteria? I wonder...
Maybe its my subconcious keeping achievable standards. For example, even if I try, I cannot become a better painter - I just don't have the vision and probably thats why I'm happy with whatever little that I do in painting.
And maybe the higher standards at studying is my sub-concious telling me that u can b better than what u r... so keep trying.
Maybe. (i wish) :)